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Thursday, July 16, 2020

My lost boy, by J.C. Kavanagh

 The Twisted Climb award-winning books
The Twisted Climb, Book 1 of the award-winning Twisted Climb series
Covid has brought about many changes to family life. Routines have been upended, patience has been tested, relationships have become stronger, or in some cases, weaker. Physical limitations have strained many a family, including mine. However, even before Covid came about, I was slowly wilting under the estrangement of my oldest son who is in his 30s. I don’t know what I did but it doesn’t seem to matter. He just doesn’t want any part of me. I wither inside.

As many writers do to unlock the emotion within, I took pen to paper (literally), and wrote this poem.

My lost boy
The first breath
The first cry
The joy in my heart
I cannot lie
He was beauty and perfection
Wrapped in cotton so fine
My first-born son
Graced my life and my family
A wee little brother for a loving big sister

The years flew by
And my baby shed his baby
He became a young boy
A big talker
A better skater
Hockey was his fuel
His talent seemed limitless
Scouts came a-watching
Team Canada came a-calling
Until the slam
Until the bam
Until the snapped shoulder
Made his dreams a sham

There was no turning back
There is no ‘undo’
It is what it is
And life goes on

But bitter is the soul
Whose dream was so big
Smashed by a smash
A shoulder no longer seen
Just like the dream
It flitted so brightly
A star in the sky
Dreamt so mightily

The consolation continued, but
The bitterness grew
And became a cement stone
Taking root, growing bold.
Fingers pointed outward, never within
Blame took hold, and joy died within

Where is my boy, my handsome son so fine
He is lost in his darkness, hands over his eyes
My love can’t seem to reach him
Though I try and I try
I will not stop, no, I cannot stop
For a mother’s love and
God’s good grace
Remains unwavering... 
I’m waiting

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Stay safe everyone. This too, shall pass.

And, on a much lighter note, I do have a great suggestion to pass the time at home this summer - read my award-winning books. If you like action / adventure / suspense / drama and a dash of paranormal, then The Twisted Climb series will take you to all those places. Enjoy!






J.C. Kavanagh, author of
The Twisted Climb - Darkness Descends (Book 2)
voted BEST Young Adult Book 2018, Critters Readers Poll and Best YA Book FINALIST at The Word Guild, Canada
AND
The Twisted Climb,
voted BEST Young Adult Book 2016, P&E Readers Poll
Novels for teens, young adults and adults young at heart
Email: author.j.c.kavanagh@gmail.com
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