My lost boy, by J.C. Kavanagh

The Twisted Climb, Book 1 of the award-winning Twisted Climb series

Covid has brought about many changes to family life. Routines have been upended, patience has been tested, relationships have become stronger, or in some cases, weaker. Physical limitations have strained many a family, including mine. However, even before Covid came about, I was slowly wilting under the estrangement of my oldest son who is in his 30s. I don’t know what I did but it doesn’t seem to matter. He just doesn’t want any part of me. I wither inside.

As many writers do to unlock the emotion within, I took pen to paper (literally), and wrote this poem.

My lost boy

The first breath

The first cry

The joy in my heart

I cannot lie

He was beauty and perfection

Wrapped in cotton so fine

My first-born son

Graced my life and my family

A wee little brother for a loving big sister

The years flew by

And my baby shed his baby

He became a young boy

A big talker

A better skater

Hockey was his fuel

His talent seemed limitless

Scouts came a-watching

Team Canada came a-calling

Until the slam

Until the bam

Until the snapped shoulder

Made his dreams a sham

There was no turning back

There is no ‘undo’

It is what it is

And life goes on

But bitter is the soul

Whose dream was so big

Smashed by a smash

A shoulder no longer seen

Just like the dream

It flitted so brightly

A star in the sky

Dreamt so mightily

The consolation continued, but

The bitterness grew

And became a cement stone

Taking root, growing bold.

Fingers pointed outward, never within

Blame took hold, and joy died within

Where is my boy, my handsome son so fine

He is lost in his darkness, hands over his eyes

My love can’t seem to reach him

Though I try and I try

I will not stop, no, I cannot stop

For a mother’s love and

God’s good grace

Remains unwavering... 

I’m waiting

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Stay safe everyone. This too, shall pass.

And, on a much lighter note, I do have a great suggestion to pass the time at home this summer - read my award-winning books. If you like action / adventure / suspense / drama and a dash of paranormal, then The Twisted Climb series will take you to all those places. Enjoy!

J.C. Kavanagh, author of

The Twisted Climb - Darkness Descends (Book 2)

voted BEST Young Adult Book 2018, Critters Readers Poll and Best YA Book FINALIST at The Word Guild, Canada

AND

The Twisted Climb,

voted BEST Young Adult Book 2016, P&E Readers Poll

Novels for teens, young adults and adults young at heart

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